plugs: BIG -planetshakers
so strong so mighty
my God's plan for me
goes beyond my wildest dreams
my God is good
He's so good to me
my God is big
so strong so mighty
my God is good
He's so good to me
He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which i stand
He's my fortress
God He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hands
my God is big
so strong so mighty
my God is good
He's so good to me
there's nothing my God cannot do
there's nothing my God cannot do
God really is good i mean he helped me and everything maybe only some of you would understand like maybe only aaron and sophil but that doesnt really matter cos a blog is for my feelings and not what others think so anyway as i was saying yes God rocks i mean really just pray to Him He'll help you in whatever He deems fit for His prince/princess that is you yup
thank you God,
for being MY GOD. (:
i love you. really i do (:
thank you.
and AARON,
i am not being jesus to him la
im just thinking of whats best for him
if youre gonna tell him everything
i told you then go ahead
but i stil think you shouldnt let him know
that im sad. yeah. seeya later! 1430! ((:
daniel's going! woohoo!
02:01
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: BYE DANIEL! (x
woohoo! havent updated in a LONG while
but yeah. BYE DANIEL! (:
i'll miss you definitely but yeah.
we all will :D
ahaha. yeahh.
hahaha. okay thanks aaron.
you really made my day
like seriously
and dont feel sad
i'll pray that God wont let it hurt me
yup (: im hiiiiigh!
and haaaaaaappy ((x
yayers! ((:
if anyone wansta know why,
ask and then i'll
SEE FIRST
whether i wannna tell ya. (:
secrets are meant to be kept, aaron.
iloveyoucow (x
19:35
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: cont'd
i really miss meakara
and hnok and sopeak
(:
meakara: i love you too (:
thanks for the pockysticks you fed me.
and the fishball too.
and the bruise you gave me (x
i'll remember you by that.
the song you taught me to play on the guitar.
your smiling face (:
for carrying my bag.
youve got nice eyes
and handsome smile
youre just handsome la
and that LAST hug you gave me before i left.
hnok: i love you too.
thanks for teaching me to play football (:
and your smiles and laughter.
i like your super long eyelashes.
the many hugs you gave me.
your crying made me cry. so dont.
i'll send you our pictures
and you'll smile (:
and the hug you gave me before i left.
sopeak: God bless you too.
thanks for playing frisbee and football
and for doing that bang-shoulders-and-fists thing (:
your ah beng hairstyle i'll never forget.
your super nice eyes and straight teeth.
youre just good-looking (:
and that last handshake you gave me
before i left. (:
i'll miss you three the most.
i cant believe that we'll probably never ever meet again.
i hope we do though. (:
i wanna see you guys.
it was fun while i was there.
seeya.
21:42
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: hello singapore
was fun. ive got some traffic light bruise
on my right leg now
and i miss
meakara,sopeak,heng,peaktra,hnok
from LoveInAction in cambodia! ((:
meakara is the HANDSOME guy there.
hahaha. and sopeak is the dumb guy
who's always styling his "AHBENG" hairstyle.
hahaha. super funny
and friendly
and open. theyre nice.
theyll hug you if they want.
and hnok cried when we left.
man he cried and i felt like crying. )x
sopeak was sad too. he told me.
argh. i just wanna go back in time.
maybe just a few days?
and relive the happy times i had back there.
its so laidback in cambodia,
so much nicer than singapore.
and i had icecream almost everyday.
and the kids there really KNOW how to share
theyll gladly give up their seats at dinnertime
if they see you standing.
and they wont take no for an answer.
theyll force you to share the chair with them
but anyway. theyre cool (:
they love God so much, that even hnok's faith is probably
alot stronger than mine.
they pray out loud,
and when i say out loud,
i mean LOUD.
cos they do. sigh.
i'll miss meakara, and sopeak.
and i'll remember them with the bruises i have. (:
and the photos
19:48
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: ((:
boot camp. (:
anyways, everything was pretty alright la
everything was fine between us
and our parents know each other
thats just freaky
we were from the same previous church.
like OKAYYY.
eeeks!
hahaha. nevermind.
yeah so anyways
thanks for the apple yeah
hahaha.dont even know why i took it
from you
i dont like apples. ):
oh well. i shall eat it
since you gave it to me.
yeap.
coolness.
at least you arent all cold and dao towards me
since i told you that yeah. some stuff. (:
have funn on your missions
and take care too. seeeeya!
four days of bliss it certainly was.
you were nice and friendly.
i hope it can always be this way
or better?
i'll pray. (:
seeeeeeeeeeeeeya!
ueipoqwec sjaddijt >lcoj (:
outt.
11:20
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: no icecream for FOUR days! ):
who are anonymous.
maybe you should just leave your
NAME? unless you dont have one
that is. ANYWAY
my life's alright now
yes yes aaron
you are now officially known as
chio ge/beautiful & gorgeous(thats really just your reflection)
haha. RETARDED.
yeah the rabbit shit thing was funny too (:
(: it was funn. it was like as if nothing bad
had ever gotten between us friends (:
PURE FUNN. xD four days of bliss :D
haha. anyway.
halyse,ejes,eiuet,epuewe,alociu,epuilaw
should officially be known,
as the UPSIDE DOWNs mann. (:
rock on.
its basically our names
LITERALLY flipped. (:
boot camp tmr.
seeeeya!
20:44
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: fuck CHINA.
but you dont, you dont have to go
youre feeling sad youre feeling lonely
and no one seems to care
your mothers gone and your father hits you
this pain you cannot bear
but we all bleed the same way that you do
we all have the same things to go through
hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know
your days, you say theyre way too long
and your nights, you cant sleep at all (hold on)
and youre not sure what youre waiting for
but you dont want to know more
and youre not sure what youre looking for
but you dont want to know more
but we all bleed the same way as you do
and we all have the same things to go through
hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know
dont stop looking youre one step closer
dont stop searching its not over
hold on
what you looking for
what you waiting for
DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOURE DOING TO ME
go ahead what you waiting for
hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know
dont stop looking youre one step closer
dont stop searching its not over
hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know
hold on.
thats how i feel now
out.
08:16
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: i knew it.
i just KNEW
i was never gonna be good enough for you
thanks for finally letting me know.
out.
22:57
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: im sorry.
maybe i should just end my life HERE.
once and for all,
for GOOD.
then you wouldnt have to worry about me
or anything i do right?
im sorry daniel
what ive done to you.
out.
21:51
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: boredd.(x
MEL, AARON, NiC, SOPH
CLA, and DANIEL.
ackk.
mel: torturing sessions,free shows
aaron: cow talking, gay chat(stop thinking dirty), and anything really
nic: all the stuff about HAWWT stars (billiejoearmstrong!!),and along with pure bullshit
soph: anything under the sun is possible with bestie (:leaf dances,guys,problems, SCHOOLWORK?!
claa: almost same as soph,i miss going out with her, and talking bullshit is like an understatement.
daniel: fighting over corner seats, hahha-ing on msn, and sending me all those stupid pics of his NEW SHOES.
i dont know.
i think its mostly boring cos weve got
nothing better to do other then
HOLS HW.
aw screw.
always okay
why cant they cut us some slack?
oh well
shall TRY to do some yeah. (:
adqatnvibeyl ui ydhoknmt gktnrosw zwxhvy fyhoru ndho ktmhlirs dtpo wmde
08:36
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: hey juliet.
but he wont. he never will
unless he ever liked me back which
i doubt he does
i dont know okay
stuffs always so confusing and everything
sometimes i dont know who to believe
yeah plus im the one thats stuck
so yeah that kinda sucks if you know what i mean
oh wait you prolly wouldnt
well maybe besides chio ge and mel
yeah only theyd know
last night my dad was asking me
what kinda boyfriend id like
he gave me three options:
- sporty (like win)
- pretty boy (like aaron)
- teddy bear (like daniel)
and i was like abit of all three?
yeah
i mean every guy HAS to be abit
pretty right?
oh well yeah
aaron's just a nice guy whos a really
good friend if you have a secret
to keep.
and like stuff that you needa sort out
thanks for beign there aaron.
yeah and melinda is someone you
can just pour your heart out to
cos she'll listen and just take everything in
and think of something nice to say
to counter all the bad stuff
thanks yeah mel?
i'll smile for you
but if i cry dont say i didnt try. (:
out
09:47
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: unanswered.
i'd never know till friday.
oh and why the fuck am i being so stupid
and dumb, rushing things
when i said id trust it to God?
damn
who's lying and who's not?
daniel and aaron.
i dont know la
fucking hell. im bloody confused okay
keep your distance if you know what i mean.
argh fuck it.
dont bother counting the number of "fuck"s there are
in this entry alone.
cos im fucking depressed
maybe my mom was right
maybe im just a fucking useless piece of crap
ah fuck it man.
i cant even do a single fucking thing right
i mean i cant fucking do my shit studies
and like fuck all i'll never be tops in ANYTHING.
just a fucking good for nothing.
i was a fucking mistake god made
i may sound shit insulting now, but its cos im feeling shit
fuckfuckFUCK.
thanks alot.
so much for "i think he likes you"
my ass. he doesnt la
face the fucking reality.
it'll never work out. it just wont
no matter how fucking nice daniel can be
it will NEVER WORK. cos i just fucking cant
make things fucking work.
yeah go ahead
SAY IT.
ima fucking failure.
out.
16:43
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: dontcha cow?
dontcha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
dontcha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
dontcha
dontcha
dontcha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
dontcha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
dontcha
dontcha
this songs cool (:
and im rather anxious to hear the news.
whether i end in tears of sadness or joy,
its up to well. yeah. you know who.
oh well. yeah.bored.
got so much WORK to do. ):
always! whats the teacher's bloody problem.
its always the hols that they dump all the friggin work on us.
BASKET la. )x
damn okay.
i dont even know why i'm HERE.
maybe its cos i'm just WISHING
cow would come online.
but he aint. )x
and i miss him like shit.
its like what 3 days i havent seen him.
ARGH. shall go now. seeya.
12:33
Darmritpad ; Ashh
