plugs: Yellowcard ; Starstruck #
ACES actions had stupid names to each one of 'em. Eg. Funky Fish, Robocop, and Out-In-Out, which in certain contexts, sounds extremely vulgar and obscene! o.0
Anyhow, I didn't even perspire, so really, what was the point in that "workout"? And then the hall was so small(or we've just grown fat) that we were packed like a bunch of sardines, while the teachers were nicely spaced out, with chairs to sit on! >:( Rarh. And I drank so much water I had to excuse myself twice -.-
And they claimed we'd end by 1030. Yes, Mrs Lee, 1230 and 1030 are exactly the same thing! Urgh. What a waste of time, coulda spent it doing something more useful! >:(
Finally completed the stupid NE Quiz. It's so ridiculous, you've to do it or you aren't allowed to graduate from your respective schools. ':|
Coffeebean after that, studied till about 6? :) Yeay, I feel accomplished, and it's nice when you break up into small groups. There's more space to share things. Hannah & Dez know what I mean. :])
Oggay, I think I'm gna get more paints tmr, and I'll be returning the key to Mrs Ong's shelf. Heh. :D Whoopee, I like my life tho it's kinda stressful, but at least it gives me smtg to do, and the Olevels give me something to anticipate (Yes, once it's over I'm gna have fun!) >:) Kerchow! x)
19:20
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Mr Brown ; Mai Hahm #
HAHAHAHAHA! The voice is so monotone, then they go put it tgt. HAHAHA! :D Yeay I'm listening to the real My Humps now x)
Oggay, English Prelims tdy, I don't feel confident of my results at all, for some reason. I've got this really bad feeling that I screwed up both components, which totally sucks, cos I really wanted an A2, but seems like I'm not gna get it afterall :/ Rarh
20:13
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: The Veronicas ; Everything I'm Not #
And I can't measure up
But I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I wish I could tell my mom this, she's always expecting me to be what she wants. And I'm just not her, in every sense of the word. Sure, I look almost identical to her (Yes, I'm fatter, bigger, whatever) but asides from the physical attributes, most else is quite opposite.
She's hardworking, I'm lazy.
She's smart, I'm stupid.
She's serious, I'm a joke.
She's perfect, and I'm NOT.
My mom is really honestly everything I'm not. I respect her, and love her a lot, for who she is. But why can't she do the same for me?! If I get the top marks for an assignment, she just says I can do better than that. If better is what you're always striving for, then you can never be the best, ie the best is yet to be. I don't see what the point in building up all this when it's all going to fall apart one day. On earth, we're all comparing grades (school), or salary (working adults). Okay, so maybe not all working adults compare salary, but they do compare wealth, by the type of car you drive, the size of your house, the amount you donate to charity, right down to even the clothes you wear.
What if there was something more than this? What would all these so-called "treasures" be worth then? Nothing, absolutely nothing.
It's confusing when God asks us to do our best in whatever we do, but do it for the glory of God. How does studying really hard to attain good grades, glorify Him? I don't see the link between the two. :/
Back to my mom. There's this really big gap between us, it's really a love-hate relationship with her. I can't hate her, simply because, she is my mom afterall. And it's not like she's evil, so there isn't any reason to hate her. But then again, the way she sees things is so different. I paste stickers on my nametag cos I think the stickers are cute. She interpretes it as me hating my name. If my mom ever reads this, I'm telling her, I love my name. And I don't doubt that one bit, even tho it's masculine and all that shit. I wish we'd just see things the same way. You like pretty things, and I prefer cool & grunge.
bye :/
16:01
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Matchbook Romance ; Promise #
And never let me go?
Promise me you'll never let me go.
'screams. I think I'm gna fail science prac!! :(( There goes my 10 points, there goes my ACJC! x(( Rarrrrrhhh!
Ahy, on a lighter note, I did surprisingly well for my English common test this term. :) I've got yet another composition to be returned. Hope I get like 22 or 23, then I can achieve my A2 for this term :D I heard everyone did quite badly for the recent Math test. Now I'm disheartened, and have a really bad feeling I'm gna flunk it x( Rarh >:( Hope I do alright, cos I really want a B3 for this term's Math. Then can get A1 for Prelims, hopefully. :/
Anyhow, watched Cry Baby at Dez's just now, and it's the worst movie I've ever watched. The only good point is that Johnny Depp stars in it, asides from that, the plot is absent, and the ending's so fulla shit, extremely anti-climax. And what the hell, the whole show revolves around people making out. o.0 And there's this really fat, ugly, distorted lady who shouted "I'm gonna punch his ugly face!" Hahahahahaha I couldn't stop laughing at that part!! :D
Ah well. Prelims! 'runs.around.screaming.insanely. Yes, I did that in the canteen after practical. :P And I've really learnt to appreciate my school in all it's glory/bullshit. I didn't realise that I'm having a lot more fun at school than other people are. I don't know how I'm gna survive without all the stupid jokes we crack everyday. Much less, surviving without my circle of friends. I hope we'll all keep-in-touch. I think I don't mind having Mrs Rajah as my science teacher anymore. It's not like she hasn't done anything for us, it's just, she's so paranoid, that she seems like she's picking on us. When really she just wants us to do well, cos she sees we've the potential!
I'll definitely miss PL, and I'll miss walking home with Dayna man. Ah shit. Singapore sucks, and so do the lives we lead. We all go our separate ways, and lose contact. It kills our social life! :( I hope I'll never change from what I am, but that's just wishful thinking, I guess. :/
19:33
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Ewan Mcgregor & Nicole Kidman ; Elephant Love Medley #
Math Lesson: Ms Gan didn't come in, she was attending to smtg, prolly some discipline case or whatever, I don't really bother with such things. Anyway, I was just uhh, talking, and yakking, without actually processing whatever I said. So it all came out, making me look like some demented dumb kid.
"Eh Bre, I can just imagine you lying down on your desk to sleep, then roll off your chair onto the floor 'laughs."
"Walao, no lor, the possibility of your hitting or banging something first is more likely lor!"
"Rubbish! If I push you and you roll onto the floor, the probability (yes, it's Math lesson, let's use Math terms! :D ) of you on the floor is 1!"
"If I push you and you hit the wall, the probability is also one okay!"
"No, that would be the wall hitting, me, so the probability of me hitting the wall is zero!"
"What?! How can the wall hit you? Siao ah?!"
"No, I'm not crazy! You are! If the walls have ears, they have hands too, they're human! They probably have noses too, then we'll all die, when they come down with the flu bug :( ack. Tsunami + Bird flu, all in one! o.0"
"What the hell eh Ashley! Machiam (I think that's how you spell it) just talking nonsense eh!"
Hahahaha, Stupid dialogue. You can probably tell which is my side of the conversation. :P I'm sorry, I just blabber when I'm half-there.
Bio: worse still,
"Eh, if breasts are fats, then I've got damn a lot of breasts man! o.0 Then all the fat people have like a million breasts man! :D"
"Ashley! What the hell eh, anyhow eh! (Yes, Bre has a very bad habit of adding 'eh/lor/la' too everything) Breasts have nipples la!"
"Oh yeah, HAHAHAHAHA, then like chicken pox or measles, nipples all over (imagine if they were lactating HAHAHAHAHAHA ROTFLMFAO!)"
"Oh gosh, best eh you-"
Ms Koh: "Okay, Breanna, please move up to the front, the two of you cannot stop talking! (and laughing)"
"sian. Nobody to talk to about such things now, nevermind, wait till PE. ;)"
PE: As we're leaving class,
"Hey Chereel! Stop, stop! Stay there 'pokes.side. Bre! She doesn't have ribs! HAHAHA fats, equals, breasts (Cheryl's just staring in bewilderment, and the two of us are laughing like mad.)"
I won't elaborate on the rest of tdy, but hell, it was fun. :D And there were food fights, or rather, milo fights. Ice too :D Ice wars. HAHAHAHA Do you know, ytd Soph and I went to the bookshop, and they were selling pocket tissues, and the packets had names like "Lila & Still", "Ice Air", "Matree", "I Dog Stupid (Xiao Gou Ben Ben)" HAHAHAHA, whalao. Siao! x)
Kerchow! I love my stickerZ :D
18:23
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Nickelback ; Far Away #
I love you
English oral was so-so, the examiner was really friendly, helped me not to be so anxious, but I dono whether what I said was substantial. :( Hopefully it was. Rarh >:(
Anyhow, I got my PAINTS! Haha whee. :D Borrowed a palette from the Art Room. Hope it isn't missed. I'll return on Wednesday when there's art :)
Hope I fared well on my Math test last week, hopefully we're getting it back tmr! :D Bye!
20:43
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Avril Lavigne ; Nobody's Home #
Sorry, I read that little note and umm yeah, cried. I know you care. And so do all my friends. And uhh I'm saying sorry, and I mean it, but putting words into actions is a lot harder.
18:06
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: PCD ; Buttons #
The amount of intake doesn't matter anymore, cos it's gna leave my body, be it by natural means, or otherwise. (And I'm not referring to exercise)
Sorry Hannah, deal's off, and has been, for the longest time.
Ashley Yuen Jun --
[adjective]:
Sexually stunning
Haha. whoa siaoZ.
15:06
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: The Used ; I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) #
In your eyes,
I lost my place
I'm re-taking Chinese, not like there's any choice, cos like yeah, I got a C6. And no, I don't really hate the language. Whatever I wrote on the board was out of anger at myself for being sucha failure, and being human, I blamed the language, not myself. :/
Whoa, I think I'm never gna hang around Bre, Hannah, Des, Deb, Ter, and Adel, anymore. Lik oh my gosh, they're the most horny bunch'f girls I've ever known! Shuddup about male appendages already man. It's not very, umm, polite. :P Yeah sure it's fun, but too much is not very good. Cos, later become graphic, then how! :X Hahaha. Flowers. Tsktsk, PureBio&Lit students! 'shakes.head.
Anyway, tdy I really laughed until I couldn't walk. I had like, muscle cramps! o.0 Chain reactions, inside joke. :DDD
Bye bye, Bio test tmr, :) pray I'll do well, and piano at 2! :) Then there's art to do :D Haha, k, seeeeyaaaaaa! I love Jesus x))
16:12
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: The All-American Rejects ; Dirty Little Secret #
my liddle brudder's the cutest! :D
yeay I'm feeling so much better tdy :D
11:00
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Ciara ; 1, 2 Step #
make the boys say hello
Walao, my Chinese results suck big time. :/
18:38
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: PCD ; Don't Cha #
Click is super duper ultra funny, but the language used is shocking! Haha small kids of not more than 7 years of age use phrases like "You gotta be shitting me!" and "You call that a car? It's just a blue piece of shit!" Hahaha, whalao. And one parent used every single word known, ranging from shit, all the way to motherfucker, and it wasn't even censored! o.0 Anyway, even though the ending is damn stupid, I still like the acting, Adam Sandler's a really good actor, he can make you laugh till your sides hurt, and make you tear, all in the same movie. Hahaha. Damn funny!
Will you love me in the morning?
Celebrations were stupid, and I stepped on my little flag, i've got a flag tattoo near my ass, and "Made in Singapore" on my neck. Kerchow.
20:28
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: The All-American Rejects ; Move Along #
Move along move along like I know you do
It's 3cm too thick, and 15cm too long! o.0
I was traumatized, and sitting cross-legged, paralysed, and in a state of shock, and Bre, Del, Hannah and Teresa, were sitting there laughing at me. -;-
19:33
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Ciara ; Goodies #
Just respect the playa for it
Leonard! Don't be so down alr, I'll pray for you k! :D Hee, Love ya beeg brudder x)
22:25
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Ciara ; Goodies #
Retching sounds sick, but it might work.
20:18
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: The All-American Rejects ; Move Along #
Those hands are meant to hold.
Ahhhh Pirates, Pirates Pirates Pirates! :DDD Orlando is damn damn damn damn damn damn sexy! 'faint. Haha, okay that's exaggerating, and it's gna make someone angry. :/ haha, sorry! >:)
Yeay, Ms Gan has taken my name off the Math remedial list, even though I've never attended a single session >:D (Well, I'm sorry, I just don't believe math rememdial can help me >:]) ) Hmm, Social Studies test was quite alright. So glad I studied and memorised some points and examples last night! :D Or else I would've failed, dead sure.
Something Captain Jack Sparrow said in the show struck me. As in it was something else I heard that was similar. :) "It's just a ship, afterall." Like whoa yes, totally. Then I realised that material things I hold on so tightly to really aren't that important, they'll never get to heaven with you, the weigh you down, and you won't be able to float or smtg. Like they're earthly things, and will always go with gravity, but when you die, you're not there. As in, you just float away somewhere. I think. That's my idea of what happens after death anyway. :P
Kerchow! :)
18:47
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: Delirious? ; Stronger #
Tdy was draggy, kinda but passed fast, overall. :D Cos Art's so damn long! o.0 But okay la, I painted the Netball, and Dez likes my ball. I completed sketching the stupid roulette, I think I'll paint it next. x) oh shall draw in the dice later. :)
Kerchow!
18:16
Darmritpad ; Ashh
plugs: The Veronicas ; When It All Falls Apart #
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
G!
Oh man oh man, please stop being like that. Cyber wars are stupid and writing all those mean remarks in your post isn't gna make people like you better! if you feel angry, scribble it down with pen & paper, and throw it away after. Remember that sermon that day? I think it was David Ho. He told us that humans are very strange beings. Sure, we hold onto money, which seems reasonable, though we know we can never carry it to our graves. But why do we hold onto things like anger and feelings of hatred? Ultimately, the person you hurt the most, is neither those you criticise, nor those who love you, but it's both yourself, & God. is it really worth it? Getting angry with people you can't hurt? Just don't, it's not good, for your mind, body, soul and spirit.
Anger's like acid. It eats into your inner-being. Slowly, it corrodes all your insides, leaving you empty and bitter. And because you can't psychologically screw people, your anger starts showing in your actions. And that's when you're really screwed. It'll be like that video that Pastor B showed us. And yeah okay, since I used to have a really bad temper, I can vouch for that theory. So please don't okay! :/ Cheer up, life in secondary one is meant to be enjoyed. Cos you can never relive it, even if you retained.
010806
I thank God for giving me marks I don't deserve. Okay, I mean I did the work as best as I could, but I never dreamed of attaining such marks! All I asked for was at least a 16/25, which is a B4 I think, yeah, but God gave me an A2! :DD Hmm and I'm pretty satisfied with my Math marks, it's a B3 :D I should think my next test will pull it up. Hope I get an A1 x)
Kerchow!
P.s. Get well soon Squishy, your ear ah, see la too big then all the bacteria made their homes there. HAHA. x)
16:53
Darmritpad ; Ashh
