plugs: My Chemical Romance ; This Is How I Disappear #
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows
And without you, is how I disappear,
And live my life alone, forever now.
Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore.
I'm just a ghost
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore.
A single word, "bye", is used so often and so carelessly, it doesn't hold much meaning now. It's sort of ironic in fact, that we say "bye" happily, when to me, it seems to invoke this sense of foreboding. A feeling that something horrid is going to happen.
I hate that word.
I think it's so awful and embarassing for people to lean against the glass panels in the mrts. have you ever noticed how people put their entire weight on the glass? Sometimes, they're so fat, the glass creaks a little, and that scares the shit outta me. More importantly, the way their asses are squahed against the glass, on which I would like to emphasise, is transparent, you know, like, see through? It definitely leaves disturbing images in the heads of fellow passengers, especially the poor unsuspecting victims who're sitting at the corner seats.
By The Way, for people who think I'm a slacker and in total control of my life, please think again. I'm stressed like hell, I'm losing baby, losing myself, and most importantly, losing God. I know I sound like such a loser. But whatever trips your trigger, I suppose. I guess, it's the expression of calm and cool I usually have on my face, that causes others to have such perceptions of me. But really, deep down somewhere, I'm lost, okay? Perhaps reading this post will make someone out there appreciate their lives more, or at least feel the consolation of someone you despise being just like you. I don't think I'm superior to people, I just judge others to feel better about myself. Call me insecure, but sometimes I really don't give a shit about what people think of me, y'know? It's like, sometimes, I'm on top of the world, and next moment, I'm living in hell. Undercutting? definitely, loads of it. Contradictions? the more the merrier.
The world is black, and they're hearts are cold.
18:11
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